Before I became a mother, I was many things. I was a graphic designer, a traveler, an avid thrift store shopper, an interior decorator, a runner, a dance club fanatic, an underground music lover…just to name a few.
Before I became a mother, I would not hesitate to spend $120.00 on a pair of shoes consciously knowing that I wouldn’t be able to afford to eat anything but Ramen Noodles until my next paycheck.
Before I became a mother, I would spend my weekends (and the occasional weekday), out with the girls dancing until 5:00am (Chicago time) and sleeping in until at least noon.
Before I became a mother, I feared being a mother. I feared not having travel adventures to plan and look forward to. I feared not knowing how to raise a child in today’s crazy society. I feared not being able to spend money on myself. Most of all, I feared never being able to reach my career goals. I assumed being a good mother meant accepting the role of Betty Homemaker and turning in my computer for an apron.
After I became a mother, I worked hard to remain all of the things I was before giving birth, (minus the dance club fanatic and Ramen Noodle binger.) Despite my previous fear, I have become a better person all the way around because of my version of motherhood.
After I became a mother, I had more purpose than ever to be successful in my career. I now have a home-made source of inspiration. Although burp cloths have because a constant piece in my wardrobe, I’ve managed to stay apron-free…and I will soon be upgrading my old PC to a Mac.
After I became a mother, I instantly felt a love so strong it made my heart ache. I instantly felt that the little things weren’t worth stressing out over anymore. I instantly acquired a new goal of wanting my son to grow up striving to be open-minded and dynamic in whatever things he chooses to be before and after he becomes a parent.
TO ALL YOU MAMAS OUT THERE:
You are still what you were before. Because I know how wrapped up in motherhood you can get, I also know that sometimes it takes only a little motivation to get back in the game. Your game. Whatever it may be.